Okay, so maybe not until 25, but holy jeebus! The other morning my alarm clock failed to go off (or maybe I turned it off) & I didn't wake up until 5 mins after we should have been walking out the door. =( Needless to say, I basically dressed myself & then threw C & our stuff into the car. We flew to my parent's place, & then my dad came down & took C straight from the car. I made it to work on time, but barely!
We didn't have time for C's morning nursing session & since he wasn't complaining I figured it would be a good test. I've always thought it would be harder for me to drop the morning session so I was interested to see if my theory would be correct. Um...excuse my french, but HOLY SHIT! By 11AM, I was D-Y-I-N-G. It was almost like back in my early days of nursing when I was engorged. Um, can you say painful much? Yeah, it was pretty bad & basically sealed the deal on my theory. By the time my lunch rolled around at 3PM, I was rushing to my parent's house to feed C & get some relief. How are we EVER going to wean? =)
Basically, the way I see it is that it will come down to a show-down between the two of us. He doesn't want to give up bedtime & I don't want to give up morning. It's a good thing we don't have to stop either one for the time being! This just proved to me that obviously, neither of us is ready just yet. And despite people being all weirded out by the fact that we are still nursing, all is 100% well.
I notice that the longer we continue to nurse, the less supportive people become. Thank god for my family, best friend & husband who never question my choice to continue nursing. =) If it weren't for them it would have been a lot harder to make it this far. Especially now, when people see my baby, who is not such a little baby anymore & ask if I am still breastfeeding. When I say yes, they now give me THAT look. You probably know the one if you've done extended nursing. I literally feel like saying "I don't need your side-eye, thanks". Honestly though people, nursing my toddler is not much different then nursing my baby. And there is nothing gross or sexual about it. C has no word for milk & he doesn't ask for it in strange or unusual ways. He only ever whines for milk in the AM & at bedtime. Even when he's hurt he doesn't seek it out for comfort. He's never lifted up my shirt or grabbed at me while out in public or otherwise. We still use the boppy pillow & C still nurses in the same position. Most of the sessions are just shorter now then when he was younger & obviously less frequent. To me, it feels absolutely no different then the last 9+ months. If that changes & I ever start to feel weirded out myself then we'll reassess, but in the meantime....how is it anyone's business, but my own? And really, how can people (who haven't even walked a 1/4 mile in my shoes) judge? I don't want to be a witch about the whole thing, but I'm proud of my nursing accomplishments & will continue to nurse as long as it's right for C & I. I may have to get more harsh with my responses if people continue to be rude with my simple answers. I wholeheartedly support extended nursing & I won't have people with no comprehension of it judging me or my child.
Okay, rant over.
*steps down from soap box*
It's so irritating that you get 'looks' from people. You are doing what works for your family, and no one has any right to decide what they think is best for C besides you and YH.
ReplyDeleteIt's sad that it's so "taboo" in society to do extended nursing that I don't even feel like I can come out & talk openly about it with a lot of people. It seems it only ever gets brought up if they ask me & then comes "the look". I figure if you don't want the answer, don't ask the question. Some people are just plain rude!!
DeleteOh, I get that look all the time, too!
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