Okay, I have to admit that I have a little problem & it is getting a tad bit out of control. Yes, I'll fess up-I am a dirty, filthy stalker. Of my baby registries that is. And all I am accomplishing by this lurking & stalking is stressing myself the f**k out. My first baby shower is this coming Saturday & no one has bought anything off of either of my registries. I know, I know...people procrastinate on these things, but I am a worrier. Maybe...irrationally so, but I can't help myself. It's in my DNA!
So, that being said....as of today I vow to NOT lurk, stalk or peek at my registries. It's gonna be really tough, because it has become SUCH a bad habit but I am tired of stressing out. Not to mention, all the stress can not be good for me or for Carter. I should be excited about my baby showers, not stressed & worried. And one sure way to reduce my stress is to just quit already. There is nothing I can do about it either way & I am sure that whatever my friends/family/co-workers get for me & Carter will be perfect. If I don't end up getting everything that I need, I will cross that bridge when we get there. We still have 10 1/2 more weeks to go & I don't want to spend it feeling bad.
My other problem with my showers seems to be worrying that no one is going to come to them. Which is also silly. I know! I know! I am a total emotional, crazy, pregnant wreck. Again, in my rational mind, I realize that there really is no point in fretting over this either as I have absolutely NO control over it. The people I love & who love me will be there god willing & I just have to enjoy my time celebrating with THOSE people. I can't stress about the others. I keep telling myself these things & have even brought up my silly fears to Mr. K. He made me feel a lot better, but I still can't stop thinking about it. I have worried so much about my showers & no one coming to them that it is creeping into my dreams. Sad, I know. I am literally making myself sick with worry. It SUCKS. Why does it always have to be SOMETHING? You have to love hormones & being a control freak. The two do NOT go hand in hand. Maybe I need to start meditating or doing yoga or deep breathing exercises OR...maybe I just need to learn to let go a little bit. It's very hard for me, but I am going to really try.
Writing about it & talking with my momma just now really did help. I feel a teensy bit better already. So glad that I have my momma there to talk to about anything & even this late at night. I can only hope that I end up being as good a momma to my little boy!
nobody bought anything off of my registries, either, but i am resisting checking for this weekend's shower, lol.
ReplyDeleteas for the attendance, well, a lot of people who said they were coming, didn't and then i also had two uninvited (but welcome!) guests so you never know!
I hope your shower is beyond your wildest expectations and you get everything you need for Carter :) Have a blast and try and "relax" ;)
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