Two little words...

Okay, so let's talk about #2 here for a second.

No, not the #2 of the bathroom variety. The #2, as in baby number 2. As in, having a second child. K & I have always agreed on this one, that we do not have the desire to have 2 under 2. Our plan has always been to not start TTC again until Carter is at least 18 months, but preferably not until his second birthday. We figured that around 3 years was a good age gap between our kids. It's close enough that they aren't TOO far apart, but not so close that we have two kids in diapers or basically two babies. I always said that I wanted C to get his chance to be the baby before bringing another one into the picture. That being said, we definitely want more then one child, just not right now.

I will start this story by saying that AF has still not returned for me postpartum. I am on a low-dose BCP & still nursing C 4-5 times daily on average. I have mentioned in the past that I occasionally have been known to forget to take my BCP.  I even forgot to refill my Rx one week & literally took a whole week off. Oops! I'll be 100% honest & say that it hasn't really mattered much because K & I's sex life has been pretty non-exsistent since C arrived. I have almost no desire & we're otherwise just too tired or too busy. That is until recently....

C has been STTN pretty consistently for the last couple months & this has led to me being back on a normal sleep schedule myself which includes staying up later. More sleep + more time = more couple time. You get the picture. Needless to say, this whole forgetting to take my pill thing is more of a problem. You CAN ovulate before AF returns.

On that note....I have been tired, extremely tired. I have been moody, I have started to break out. I have also been getting extremely nauseous at random times. F**k!

I figured there was NO WAY I could be pregnant again, but I had to make 100% sure. We have not been as careful as we should...

And so I offer you exhibit A:

I took this yesterday & I was right, I am Not Pregnant as the stick above so lovingly told me. I should feel elated right? I should feel relief? This is what I was hoping it would say right? Right?! RIGHT?!

I guess it's true what they say about testing when you're not trying. You'll know exactly how you feel as soon as you see that result. I actually felt disappointed & a little bit sad. I wasn't exactly hoping to be pregnant & I certainly wasn't planning this, but....

I guess I am ready for another one.

18 months isn't that far off right?