Mommy Mondays

I know I spend the majority of my time on this blog talking about C. It's a baby blog first & foremost, but I need it to be a bit more of an outlet for me occasionally. I think it would really help me feel a lot better about myself if I could also use this blog as a place to get things off my chest. Hence, I am introducing Mommy Mondays.

These posts are going to be about me. I like to try to keep this blog happy-go-lucky for the most part, but I do have my moments. Sometimes I just need to vent to the universe or feel bad for myself or cry or just relieve some stress. These posts are going to be about whatever I want to talk about. How I'm feeling, what I'm doing, what I'm thinking. It will be therapeutic to have this outlet.

So if you aren't cool with the occasional outburst from this momma, then stop reading on Monday's from here on out. =)

As I said in a previous post, AF returned finally at the beginning of this month for the first time in nearly 2 years ending the "am I/aren't I" pregnant thing. I was happy to have AF return & in truth it really wasn't that bad. I expected her return to be TERRIBLE since I had heard so many bad things about what PP AF was supposed to be like. Yes, it was possibly heavier then previously, but I barely had cramps at all when before my cramps were KILLER.

On that note, charting began again....sort of. Since when I have I become THAT person?! My chart looks terrible. When I was TTC with C I would have laughed my ass off at someone who's chart looked this bad. Missing temps, open circles, jesus...even missing CM! I'll be lucky if FF even detects ovulation this month. Yikes! I guess I have no one to blame, but myself. I never really believed that charting with a toddler would be hard, but boy was I wrong. I feel bad for thinking that people TTC #2 had horrible looking charts without reason. Oh there is reason, alright! I also decided not to do OPKs this month...I probably should, but it just seems like such a waste of money. I could always get some cheapies, I suppose, but damn am I being lazy when it comes to this whole TTA thing.

And next Monday is my GYN appt. Yeah, you know...the month follow-up that turned into the YEAR follow-up. I sure as f*ck hope that my pap comes back normal this time. I CAN NOT go through another colpo. I just can't. I really am worried. =( And I also don't want to tell my Gyn that I stopped my BCP. *sheepishface* I don't know why...I'm an adult for gosh sakes! I can make my own decisions....Oi! We shall see how that all shakes out...