Have you ever just had one of those weeks or even days where you literally feel like you aren't doing ANYTHING in your life particularly well? Yes?
Well, I am definitely having one of those weeks.
C busted his face on our coffee table today & I thought initially that he had just hit his head until I felt an unusual amount of wetness on my shoulder. Yeah, it was not just tears & drool. He ended up knocking his front right top tooth out at the root. =( I called the Pedi & the Pedi dentist & unfortunately, there is nothing to be done about it. They don't put baby teeth back in (obviously) & he wasn't injured otherwise (thankfully) so he's just stuck with a big old gap in his teeth for years to come.
Needless to say, the little guy is just fine. He was cheered up almost immediately with some extra love from momma & daddy, a cold Popsicle (his first) & some Thomas the train (yep, he loves that show for some reason). We gave him some Ibuprofen & he was over it. I wish I could say the same for me. I feel TERRIBLE! How can I go from feeling like a great mom to the worst parent ever in 2.5 seconds? I'm glad the situation wasn't worse, but it's true what they say. When it's YOUR baby that's hurt you would literally do anything to take the pain away or to change the outcome. I keep thinking there MUST have been something I could have done to have prevented this. *sigh* I hate Mommy guilt.
As far as work is concerned, I still have a job...barely. I got a "talking to" & it was not a good one. Regardless of the fact that it was basically 100% bullshit, it still made me feel like crap personally. =(
I hate the dynamic at my job right now. It literally is like being back in high school. If you're liked you're golden. If you're not....you are damned if you do & damned if you don't. That is EXACTLY where I'm at right now. Boo! I almost wish they would have let me go, but at least now I can quit on MY terms when we are ready instead of with no notice. Whatever. All this did was fuel my resolve to get the hell out of there even more. It can not come soon enough.
Thank god that my relationship with K is good & I don't feel like a terrible wife on top of it. A girl can only take so many blows to the ego in one week, ya know?
Andplusalso...I'm pretty sure we once again sucked at the whole TTA thing this month. We'll see, but I have a feeling about when my ovulation date is gonna be. *sigh*
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