Bittersweet

So, I've been putting off writing this post in hopes that I would not have to write it just yet, but sadly here it is.

We are officially done nursing after 20.5 months. =(

With the pregnancy & being sick I feared that my milk supply was nearly to the point of non-existence. I guess I was right because over the last few weeks C's bedtime session kept getting shorter & shorter & shorter. He more or less gave up on even trying on the right side after a while. After skipping 3 nights of nursing in a row, I knew we were done. =( C asked for milk last night & only tried for a second before he stopped & asked for a cup of milk. I'm sad that our nursing run has come to an end, but I am so proud that I let it be HIS decision when to stop. And because we came to this end naturally, I have suffered no ill effects or pains from not nursing. It just simply ended.

It seems so odd to think that I won't be nursing a wee one again until October. I'm going to miss having that connection & special time with C, but we will still have our bedtime ritual of singing & rocking. C does not fall asleep before he goes into his crib anymore at night, but he does enjoy his quiet time with his Momma. That much won't change at least for a little bit longer. My little boy is definitely growing up & this is just one more step away from being a baby & toward independence.

It's a very bittersweet pill to swallow.