The Ugly Truth

I'm a procrastinator.

Plain & simple.

There is no other way to say it. I spend far too much time putting things off "until tomorrow," but then tomorrow turns into next weekend or next month or next...year? lol Yes, I am legit that bad. And the worst part of this whole matter is that my husband is the same way, quite possibly worse. If he gets a wild hair, things get done, BUT (and this is a BIG but) it will have to be that exact day, at that exact time or it goes on the back burner again. It's a terrible quality to have & it ends up causing a lot of pain & suffering (more for us then anyone else, but still), not to mention wasted time & money. It's the reason why we've lived in our house for 4.5 years & still have a coat closet door that doesn't open properly, a missing toilet paper roll dispenser in our half bath, missing towel rack in our master bath & a missing door to our pantry (our house was trashed when we moved in so the missing toilet, plumbing problems & broken water heater took priority). Basically, at the time these things were not important to make our home liveable. And although mostly EASY fixes, they have remained unimportant & low priority over the years. It's also the reason we haven't even attempted to re-finance our house, our dog is 6 months overdue for his shots, & why the baby mobile is about 3,000 miles + past the time for an oil change. Sad, but true. Our motto over the years has been a little "why do today what you can put off until tomorrow." If it's not urgent, it's not priority. Yeah, I admit that it's a bit bass-akwards. Yes, we're busy people with 2 full-time jobs, one part-time job, a business & a toddler between the two of us, but there is no real excuse.

Well...NO MORE!

I've been thinking a lot about things I'd like to work on this year & adding them here.  I really do want to focus on being more assertive & proactive about getting things done. I made a list here & I am going to work really hard to accomplish it this week or at least get things in motion. Despite my day job & the necessity to talk on the phone, I really do hate calling people I don't know (making appts, ordering pizza, credit card companys, ect.) so you can see where part of my problem lies. I have sucked it up this week & made some phone calls (despite my irrational anxiety) so I do have a few things already in motion. The hardest task on my list is talking to someone about Carter's baptism. The entire reason it hasn't happened yet is my phone anxiety. My mom gave me the number of our family pastor to call & I just put it off & put it off & put it off because I was afraid to call & speak to him. Silly, I know. =( Now, I've gone & lost his number also. I'll need to ask my mom for it again & now I'll be even more embarassed because he was expecting a call months ago from me that never came. Part of being a good parent is sucking up it & doing right by your child. This is important to me & I need to reflect that by my actions. I have to be the adult here & quit expecting someone else to step up & take care of this for me because no one is going to.

Sometimes you've just gotta do what you don't wanna do.....wish me luck!